The daddies are arriving in a little less than 2 weeks, on August 4. I will be so relieved when they get here. Of course I do not want this little boy (yes, boy!) to come any earlier than he is ready, but mentally, I am ready for things to happen. I know it's this way with most pregnancies, but there's so much build up with a surrogacy to THE DAY, and I'm growing anxious!
As far as the birth is concerned, I'm trying not to worry about how things will go. They're going to happen how they happen, and I know I won't have much control over any of it. My biggest concern is actually MAKING it to the hospital, as Violet's birth was 5 hours from start to finish. I know that not many people can say they truly enjoy labor (at least not while they're 'in the moment'), but I want to have time to go into myself and truly comprehend and experience what is going on ... which I did not have time to do with Violet. My midwife didn't make the birth, and had she been born 15 minutes before she was, her birth would have been totally unassisted. Craziness.
For this surrogacy, the birth is IT. That's what I get. I don't get the baby (which is fine!), I don't get the cuddles and the bonding (again, which is fine) - I get the birth and the enjoyment of seeing these two fabulous people see THEIR baby for the very first time. It will be a very emotional time, and I'm fully expecting to be overrun with emotions.
People keep asking me if I'm going to be a surrogate again. I'm undecided. A lot of it depends on how quickly things get back to normal, how quickly I can fit into my clothes again, and whether or not the daddies want a sibling for this baby.
We shall see! For now, I'm just taking it one day at a time, and enjoying almost every minute!
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